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Lots of cards today, let's jump in. First the Two of Wands fell out, which has been a stand-in for K in a very recent reading. It seemed best to keep shuffling and then the Three of Swords came out. Definitely the K situation as it's been freshly on my mind again. I didn't really feel like these cards were the actual message, more just setting the context. So I kept shuffling and then a nice chunk of cards fell out face down: Ace of Cups, Nine of Wands, Magician, Temperance, Six of Pentacles, and Justice.

Ace of Cups: a emotional restart (interesting, as I had been thinking as I came up the stairs to my desk that it is time to forgive K and myself, or forgive him as a way of forgiving myself or something). The Nine of Wands: well, I have an anxious/hyper-vigilant streak for sure and it seems like it's been quite active lately. Magician & Temperance co-appearing seems important, as they both showed up in a TdM spread about immigrating to another country. A signal to keep working on the tasks that will get me there? Six of Pentacles and Justice both allude to balance, karma, and the natural consequences of one's actions -- but within that, is also the idea that our own efforts can reap rewards. There is one social media tarot reader who describes Justice as the karma card, and that karma is an oven; you make the batter and karma bakes it, so whatever comes out depends a lot on what you put in. And also, hearkening back to the K situation, a reminder to seek balanced exchanges in relationships; situations where one person is giving much more than the other are not the way.

Finally, Knight of Swords on the bottom and the pesky Seven of Swords at the crown. I think the Knight is just indicating a time for bold action, for getting shit done, especially intellectual work. I do feel like I've ramped that up a bit lately and I'm ready to keep riding that horse. It can also be seen as an imperfect defender, which fits my conflict style somewhat (and something I am working on; a big part of that is avoiding situations/people who resist rational discussion or make me feel invisible or that my needs are unimportant, which bring out my inner Knight of Swords). As of the 7S, I'm now wondering if this also speaks to the immigration issue? Sneaking out behind the scenes, carrying what's important to me? Or am I stealing from myself through distraction and procrastination? Like is that my ADHD grabbing my attention and hoofing off with it? The yellow sky (at least in RWS) lends a more positive interpretation to it as well, linking it to the Magician, Strength, the Empress, the Fool, etc. Anyway, just turning over some possibilities as this is a card that often leaves me unsure of the meaning.

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